( y o u . a r e . I m p o r t a n t ♡ ) .july

maybe this is not a good situation, maybe people are disappointing you.
you can't trust someone? even if it is just because of your own thoughts.

Hope for the best and prepare for the worst.

I should take care of myself.
I'm writing it everywhere but I think that it is the only thing you can do when you aren't feeling good. Just do what you like and makes you happy.
Make an healthy routine, work out, skincare, dancing - which is actually the thing that helps me the most - and thinking about my goals.
Maybe it is not so easy to think about all the goals when you are not in the mood, but after doing something good for your body and mind you are more inspired and motivated.

ღ Sleeping Beauty

Don’t sleep

Don’t wake me up

Don’t sleep

Don’t wake me up

After all this time

After all these vibes

After all these highs

We’re still on this ride

Never wanna say good bye

You brought me back to life

and forever it’s just us

No more you and I

Never off just on

Opposite of wrong

If it was you and me against the world

I’d still like our odds

Please don’t ever close your eyes on me

My sleeping beauty

I gotta know now if you’re

You’re really down cause

Where there’s smoke there’s fire

I just hope you realize

That you know I believe

in a thing called destiny

So please don’t

Please don’t

Please don’t

Don’t sleep on me

The high that you’re giving

me is coming so strong

Head up in the clouds

it could poke the ozone

( f l o w . o f . l i f e ↝ ) .july

life is strange sometimes. just let things go and you might find something.

waiting is difficult. at the same time I don't even have much time.

maybe I should find a routine to not waste my time and avoiding overthinking too much.

many things happened and many things will happen. I improved at least.

( s p r i n g ღ f e e l i n g s )

Spring is coming. Maybe that's why I feel so weird in these days.

anxiety ⇢ exam.

happiness x worried ⇢ future. is it real?

I'm working hard for this exam. I love what I'm studying, fashion.

But I feel somehow discouraged. I want and need a really good grade.

I'm pretending too much, maybe. 

30day challenge: #30 Past you vs Present you: How have you changed in the past 2 years?

Today it's my birthday - 3 sep. - and yeah I changed a bit. I had many opportunities.

past me: I was starting my first fashion course, I was insecure about many things because at that time everything was changing and I had to take some decisions.

present me: I'm attending my 4th fashion course soon and I'm also working. I went to 3 exhibitions in 3 different countries being an interpreter, I met a lot of people and I was able to try my Japanese with real Japanese people, I just said some words I was pretty scared but they were still impressed, this made me want to improve and study more! In fact I took the JLPT N5 exam last year that I passed with pretty good grades. I'm taking care of myself more than before and I'm trying to increase my self esteem. I'm going to take a trip. 

30day challenge: #29 An old photo of you

A really old photo of me, but I was so cute >w< 

30day challenge: #28 5 things you are looking forward to

1. my trip even if I'm pretty scared right now, so I'm excited - really, a lot! - but I'm also scared :c
2. my fashion course, I hope I will be able to learn so much
3. meet new people from around the world
4. achieve another goal I have in mind
5. I'm looking forward to anything happy it's coming ^-^ be positive *ugh

30day challenge: #26 Ways to win your heart

- me
. make me laugh
. be honest
. be a good listener - even if you have heard it all before or if you find it boring, if I’m talking about it then there’s a reason that I need to
. surprise me
. respect me
. make me feel safe

- about you
. take care of yourself - I like guys who are clean - in every sense
. fashion - I want to be a fashion designer so you might like it too, be original not boring
. work hard - don't be lazy, have goals but try also to reach them. I'm here to support you!
. be smart
. be kind

- points extra*
. can you dance? - you can share it with me teaching me c: so cute!
. can you sing? / can you play an instruments? - sing / play for me ♡
. can you cook? - I love food, I appreciate more if you can make healthy food

ps: I'm jealous.

"She doesn’t have high standards she just knows what she deserves."

 carl alexandrè

30day challenge: #25 Another day in my life

#8:00 woke up

#8:30 shower + breakfast

#10:00 appointment with the dermatologist

#11:00 went to my grandfather's house

#12:00 home, trying to find inspiration

#13:00 lunch

- expectation -
. make clothes / sew
. work out
. Japanese

30day challenge: #24 A picture of your room

my little cute room. sorry for the really bad quality btw this is my room.

on all those hangers there are all my new fabrics I bought, I thought that this is a good way to keep them you can see well all of them especially if you don't have enough space on the drawers ;;
I keep them outside the wardrobe because looking at them I have ideas, this works when I wake up but still asleep. >o<

oh and also on my "desk" there are more fabrics, well projects that I haven't finished, but actually I don't really like them so they might stay there for a long time.

30day challenge: #23 Something you miss from your childhood

The different atmosphere there was when I was little, I think this might say everything.
Well I think the thing I miss the most is the fact that I missed time spent with my family, since my family has a restaurant since I was born my mum had to cook and so on the weekend I was alone most of the time especially when my sister started helping my mum.
I always hated being alone, now too and this fact increased it.
I didn't spend Christmas - my favourite time of the year - or any other national / religious event with my family, the tradition is to invite all the family ( aunts, uncles, cousins, grandparents .. ) during these events but not in mine since my parents were working.

30day challenge: #20 10 likes and 10 dislikes

a really random list and without an order.

#Likes

1. rain
2. cats - mine
3. honest people
4. Japan
5. fashion
6. creativity
7. diversity
8. music
9. politeness
10. food

#Dislikes

1. people who lie
2. loneliness
3. hot
4. people who talk behind someone's back
5. not open minded
6. of course people who hurt / do any bad thing to others
7. anxiety
8. overthinking
9. too much laziness 
10. people who follow the trend not having an own personality

30day challenge: #19 10 songs that come to your mind + reasons

I'm making this list with songs that come to my mind but also from my life.

#1 Weki Meki - I don't like your girlfriend
. why? yesterday I kept listening to it the whole day, and it's still going on in my head. I actually would love to learn that choreo :c

#2 Bangtan - Cypher, in particular Part 3: Killer
. why? it's getting colder, today it's raining too and it reminds me 2 years ago when I had to go to a place 1 hour far away from to take a fashion course, it was really early, still dark outside - most of the rime raining - and in the bus so I was listening to BTS.


#3 Robbie Williams - She's The One / Angels / Sin Sin Sin

. why? well I could say all the songs of Robbie Williams because when I was little and I wasn't at school there was my mum - she loved him so much, albums / DVD etc.. - that was listening to his songs in the morning and that's the first thing I remember. I always said that I didn't like his songs - wrong, I like them maybe because I've changed - but I like to remember this little thing about when I was little, it makes me feel happy c:

#4 Aqua TimeZ - プルメリア ～花唄～
. why? same thing of #2 but this time was in high school, we had to run outside - it was cold ;; - but at least, I mean at least, our teacher - I didn't like her at all! - let us listen to music and I was listening to Aqua TimeZ every time - oh, rhyme.  sorry.

#5 蘇打綠 sodagreen - 相信 / 日光
. why? same of #2 and #4 BUT this time I had 14/15 years old and it was the same year that I attended the Chinese course at school.

30day challenge: #18 Your astrological sign ( things that are true for you )

I'm a virgo. August 23 – September 22
Element: Earth
Ruling planet: Mercury
Symbol: Maiden
Zodiac symbol: Virgin

The most compatible signs with Virgo are generally considered to be Taurus - I'm sorry but for now besides my grandmother <3 I haven't found good Taurus people - Cancer, Scorpio and Capricorn. The least compatible signs with Virgo are generally considered to be Gemini - what? my childhood best friend was a Gemini and everyone knew how we were compatible together! - and Sagittarius -that's my sister and that's right!
Pisces and Virgo compatibility → I think that this might be true.

- my birthday date -
Virgos born on September 3 are ambitious and may achieve their goals early in life. If they do, they cannot be satisfied until they also have an equally successful personal life. They have a great capacity for spirituality, which may not surface until later in life.

Friends and Lovers
People born on September 3 like having people around them yet have difficulty making close friends. Their strong level of competition sometimes creates animosity. They have a great need to show that they can attract the most eligible partners when what they really want is to find the person of their dreams and settle down. Once they do, they have a capacity for true happiness and contentment.

- tumblr posts -
from what the signs need to hear

that's one of the best sign thing I've read, it's really accurate!

30day challenge: #16 Your regrets

I won't say much about this because I don't have many regrets, like yeah I wanted to take another high school, the fashion one but no I had to take the path I chose because it was the right one for that moment! And I'm taking some good courses right now that maybe I wouldn't have taken if I chose that school, this is an example but there might be many things I have done like that.

Maybe the only real regret is that I didn't tried doing something when I had a chance and so I lost some opportunities.

But I think that if you learn from your mistakes every thing you did should not be seen as a regret - well I haven't done really big mistakes since I was also little and I couldn't understand some stuff.

Oh looking for a quote I heard about regrets I found this one which is exactly what I wrote, so I end with this quote.

30day challenge: #15 Things you like and dislike about yourself

Let's try to be positive and appreciate ourselves!


. what do I like about myself?
I might say my personality, most part of it like my determination, I have some big goals and many people especially my family - not parents or sister - don't really believe in me, well they actually don't really understand what I really want to do because when I start saying fashion ... they think that it's a tough path and I won't reach it - maybe because I'm not attending specific institute but "just" a course - which they shouldn't underrate it - btw ..even if I don't have many people who believe in me I keep going!
I also like my creativity, my head always works and I have many ideas. *dislike
I like helping people, maybe I don't do this in the appropriate way for that person, but I really enjoy helping. And for this reason I'm also pretty caring.

30day challenge: #13 A day in my life

This might be really boring 'cause I haven't done anything special and this day is just my usual routine so yeah really boring. Sorry.

#9:00 wake up - just because I'm still on holiday ( right? )

#10:00 - 10:30 work out, my work out "routine": I start with some stretching exercises after them I follow some youtube videos or I practice some kpop choreo, if I really have time I dance all the song I have on my hd - yes I do this too! which means that I dance for more than an hour

#10:30 Japanese - it depends on my mood. I might just do some exercises or learning vocabulary or revise grammar etc.. Now I'm more into exercises.

#12:30 lunch

30day challenge: #11 30 facts about yourself

Hello, how are you? Today I have to write 30 facts about myself and I will just write the first 30 things that come up in my mind ~

#1 My birthday is on the 3rd of September - so soon!

#2 I like Japan and I'm learning Japanese

#3 I like fashion

#4 I have a lovely cat called Milady <3

#5 I have many ideas - too many! - of what I could create / do

#6 I don't like to share my projects if they aren't ready because I'm afraid that people can take inspiration and create something better :c

#7 I don't like when I have a passion / hobby and someone who I know stole it, yeah I mean stole it like in 1 day he/she pretends to know everything and talk to everyone about it. I know I'm weird but I became like that because of many episodes in my life and I'm pretty fed up. Sorry ^-^
- well it depends who is that person of course, not everyone

#8 My goal - in general see #6 - is to be a fashion designer & seamstress, but there are different paths of this that I won't share right now haha see #6!

#9 I studied Computer Science, and I was the only girl that year!

#10 If there will be a chance I would like to be a model - just for one day it is good too

my self esteem is low so staying with people that know how to work with the characteristics of a person maybe will help(?)

#11 I would like to be blond ( and I feel that I should be blond ) - that's an important fact 

#12 I wear glasses - they suggested me to wear them all the day even if I see well most of the time but I actually wear them because I prefer to see myself with them, I'm honest.

#13 I decided to stop buying clothes - and my mum is against it, I'm saving up, what's the problem? Anyway I can make them if I need them

#14 I really enjoy working out and I would like to be able to do it regularly

#15 I'm not an English person as you probably guessed

30day challenge: #9 5 places you want to visit

#1 Japan
If I have to choose one Country the answer is Japan with no doubt. It's almost 10 years that I discovered it and its culture and since then I kept leaning about it and I'm getting more and more attracted by it. I could talk about it for hours but it will be annoying for you so yeah I like Japan.



#2 South Korea
I don't really know if it's #2 or #3 but since it was the number 2 for the last years I've put it here. Sincerely I don't know so much about it, I listen to kpop music - I know that it might not be a right reason to go there - BUT I also watched a lot of videos of people who are living there so I learnt something, not as much as Japan tho.

#3 China
This was the number 2 the first years, in fact I took Chinese lessons too, the teacher who is a real Chinese person taught me the language and the culture too. But for some years I didn't do anything, I started again this year, I took Chinese lessons - with the same teacher, how lucky I am! and I discovered some artists I like and I'm watching some Chinese drama.

30day challenge: #8 Things you want to learn

Hello, how are you? This challenge is pretty tough when you can't post your posts because of no internet connection ;-; so did I lost? Oh no, I will keep posting those posts even if they are not in the right day, most of them are ready so I will post them, yep.

Anyway today's theme is things I want to learn, which are many since I always loved knowing stuffs etc.. but of course at some point I had to focus more on something in particular so I'm able to do something and not a bit of everything but specialized in nothing, right? You can always learn new things anytime.

#1 learn to SING
every time I listen to a song I sing and this might be hard for my family because I'm not good at it, I know! But I like it. I like it since I was 4 years old I think, we had to learn songs and sing at the end of the year - at kindergarten - I was pretty good at learning the lyrics, after hearing it once/twice I knew it. We had this also in the elementary school but my best friend of that time was really good at it and I don't know, I tried to hide myself, but yeah I probably wasn't good at all - like now.



#2 learn to DANCE
As for singing I remember that every time there was a TV program in the evening with the an opening(?) / ending(?) song I danced - in that program there were 2 girls who danced that song and I don't think I copied them but I made every evening my own choreography? kkk ok - Anyway right now I'm copying kpop choreographies but I'm not good.

#3 learn to do KARATE
Since I was a kid I loved it, I was pretty young I think, and it attracts me so much.
I think that after my dad played with me doing the Osotogari ( of course he didn't let me fall down ) but I really enjoyed it - he did Judo when he was a kid - I know that Judo and Karate are two different things but I like martial arts in general, but my favorite one is Karate!








I made this list with just things I want to learn but I need a teacher / someone who can teach me, so I didn't include stuff that I'm able to learn by myself, well for dance I can learn by myself I'm doing it but I would like someone who helps me in it, being smooth(?). I can't think of other things that can stay in this list so for now there are just 3 things, but they are not 3.